"How hard can you go before you blow up"

The last two days have been pretty tough, yesterday was my fifth day in a row of working 12 hrs. I have two more days then I am off for 5. This definitely plays apart in my energy level as well as my recovery time. The last two days of training have not been any picnic either. Yesterday was an off the bike work out day, basically destroying the core. Then today's focus was on going as hard as I can, on a hill five reps. Over all I think it went pretty well, but there is always this thing in my head (something I need to work on) that if I dig to deep I will never recover, and I will be off the back of the pack. Well, I think its time to realize that even when I go somewhere in the middle I end up off the back, what can I do.

In my opinion I don't trust my fitness enough, an I think (like anyone else) I don't want to suffer to much. So, I either have to get tougher and take that chance or accept that if I don't push it I will be finishing where I am or slightly better in my events. It may sound (at least for the level I race at) that I am putting to much into it. I don't see it that way, the way I do see it is pushing ones self is how we get ahead in all our live ventures and being able to juggle family (first priority always to me), work, and cycling is training, and as I have been told I take things to an extreme that most people in my position would that's just me and I love it.

Going to finish up the 7 day climbing boot camp tomorrow, then its into 14 days of go longer climb stronger. I have a century coming up next Sunday the 23rd of August, and am using that as part of my training. I have seen a good bit of improvement in the last three weeks, so I must be doing something right.

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